Desiring 'an understanding' means simply seeking to get a way to set it, a form of words and phrases, it is not truly a knowing of any form, it is just a way to talk about it. One understands nothing in pleasure, in despair there is the load of figuring out every thing. Otherwise, know absolutely nothing. Nothing else is worth figuring out, for all there is no God but me, immune to improve, omnipotent only in sacrifice.